So, it has definitely been a LONG time since I last blogged...I feel as though I should apologize, but I really see no reason too. :) For a quick life update, we are now back in Rexburg, ID, and Xander finished up the semester on the 9th, and is getting ready to start the next one tomorrow.
Alex and I have been through a LOT these past three and a half months. Especially when going from tons of family around to just mom in a little over 3 days time, it is a LOT to adjust to. Alex had to learn that he wasn't going to get as much attention 24/7, and I had to almost re-learn how to take care of my own baby, without any helpers. Through lots of tears, frustration, screaming and crying - I've made it through. ;) Oh, and Alex too. It has actually been quite a fun experience for me though, and I can say that now that we have all adjusted of course. I feel like I know Alex a lot better than before; I also feel more confident when making decisions for him. I will admit, there are still many times when I get frustrated with him, and just want him to "Do what Mommy says! No questions." But then I have to remind myself that he is just a baby, and hasn't a clue what I'm talking about yet. I know he understands some things, and is understanding more everyday, so I am the one who just has to be patient. Which is very hard for me.
One thing is definitely for certain. Motherhood is no walk in the park. And more often then not, you always seem to end up the "bad guy" at least once or twice a day. Understanding that a baby's wants are his needs has also been hard for me. Because I have to tell myself that he may WANT to eat the TV and computer cords, but it is better that he not. Motherhood is also a very unselfish calling. There really isn't any room for selfishness when raising a baby! Because they take up all of your time and attention. So yes, I have learned and re-learned a lot these past couple of months, and am still alive to tell it all. Hopefully I'll be able to get back into blogging a bit more, especially as I get a nice routine down for Alex. In the meantime, here are some pictures and hopefully the video works too. He has definitely grown a lot! :)
He is darling! I'm glad you're doing well and finding strength in conquering the difficulties of motherhood.
ReplyDeleteAww...I sympathize. We lived with Michael's family (in Rexburg!), and the adjustment in moving to our own place was pretty hard in the way of mothering. Ender suddenly was out 8 friends who were also great helpers for me. He was older when we did that, recently 2, so I'm sure it was different than with Alex for you. But I really know those feelings!
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