Thursday, August 23, 2012
Moving Adventure with 2 Kids
It has been a LONG couple of months since I last blogged...I'm not very good at this am I? :) Oh well, life gets crazy very often. Since my last post I have already given birth to another beautiful baby boy. Charles Michael. He is SUCH a joy, and I am so happy we have him in our family. (I say this while he is screaming on the floor - he hates his tummy time).
We finally moved from Kansas back to Idaho last week, so Xander could finish up his last semester. (Imagine a super big happy squeal and happy dance right now). We had planned on leaving EARLY Wednesday morning, but my body decided to get earlier that week...so packing was put on standby. On top of that, Alex had thrown up Monday night as well. We ended up finally getting everything into the car and car top carrier around 2:30 that afternoon. It was really late in the day, but since it was also around nap time for both boys, we figured we could go ahead and head out, and just get as far as we could. Luckily, without pulling a trailer, we made good time. Unfortunately, since we weren't pulling a trailer, the car was SUPER packed, and we had to leave a ton of stuff behind.
The boys were SO amazing for the entire car trip. I was a pretty proud momma. Charles slept almost the entire time, while Alex stayed fairly entertained and also napped on and off. It also helped that I had a toy bag ready for Alex (with at least 3-4 new toys just for the car trip), and made sure to to only give him one or two at a time. When we he was done with one, I took it back and gave him a new one. I think that helped out a lot with keeping him entertained. We also had purchased a small tray that could hook onto Alex's car seat. THAT definitely helped out with snack time and meals. We also made sure to stop about every three to four hours to do diaper changes, and move the boys around.
We finally made it to Rexburg, ID, around Friday afternoon. We were able to get straight into our apartment, while Xander began to unpack our storage unit the the car. The boys were SUPER excited to out and moving around. Especially Alex! That little boy just loved running around the empty apartment, stretching his legs. We love our new apartment. It's only two bedrooms, but it has lots of windows and a nice big (well, big for an apartment) kitchen. It's been fun trying to find places for everything.
The only bad thing to have happened so far is that Friday night, Alex started throwing up...and kept throwing up til Monday morning. The poor little guy felt so light and listless I was getting really worried, but he finally started keeping some crackers down, and was able to drink a lot of water. He is finally doing better - in other words, back to his usual "get into everything" self. This whole move is definitely an adjustment. And maybe I'll even have a few minutes in the morning to continue blogging. We shall see.
For now, Charlie is done with tummy time, and Alex is ready for morning cartoons. While I should be unpacking and organizing some more...but instead I will most likely start baking some bread or cookies. :) Because to be honest, I have missed cooking in my own kitchen with my own things a lot!
Monday, January 9, 2012
A New Year with Lots to Look Forward to!
First off, I have to say, I am rather ashamed to admit that I wasn't able to get any of my Christmas cards or new years letters out this year. :( Things are a LOT crazier with a 1 year old, moving around, and being over 22 weeks pregnant. So, of course, things didn't go as planned. Such is life.
So! I thought I would do a quick family update on here, and what we are looking forward to the most this year.
2011:
We moved back to Rexburg, Idaho, in January so Xander could start his Junior year at BYU-Idaho. We were greatly blessed to be able to house-sit for some Kansas of ours, who were serving a full-time mission in Sand Diego, CA. It was such an amazing blessing being there up to the end of June.
Xander applied, and was accepted, into the fast track program at BYUI. Which means he could now take classes from January to December. Thankfully this is allowing him to graduate almost 6 months earlier than we originally thought possible.
During this time, our sweet Alex was learning and growing like crazy! :) He learned to crawl and walk, and by Christmas was running around Grandma and Grandpa's house. He also learned how to say Dada and Mama, and even picked up on a few others words that are in his own language. He is such a joy in our lives, and we are loving every new day with him.
One of the most exciting things that happened in 2011 for us, was finding out mid-August that we were pregnant with our second baby! And then finding out after Thanksgiving that we were having another boy. After finding this out, and after much debate/discussion, it was decided that Alex and Mo would be staying at her parents until the baby arrives in April. While Xander would head back up to Rexburg until the beginning of April for classes.
So that is just a bit of what happened in 2011 with the Xander and Mo Brown family. We are now looking forward to a few awesome things set to happen in 2012!
2012:
Xander is starting his senior year of college, and is set to graduate this December! We couldn't be more excited and READY for this. We are also happy to be having our second little boy, due April 24th! Mo is just anxious for Xander to be home before then.
So, for now, those are the two things we are looking forward to in 2012. But, as this year continues, we will see what other wonderful things are in store! :)
So! I thought I would do a quick family update on here, and what we are looking forward to the most this year.
2011:
We moved back to Rexburg, Idaho, in January so Xander could start his Junior year at BYU-Idaho. We were greatly blessed to be able to house-sit for some Kansas of ours, who were serving a full-time mission in Sand Diego, CA. It was such an amazing blessing being there up to the end of June.
Xander applied, and was accepted, into the fast track program at BYUI. Which means he could now take classes from January to December. Thankfully this is allowing him to graduate almost 6 months earlier than we originally thought possible.
During this time, our sweet Alex was learning and growing like crazy! :) He learned to crawl and walk, and by Christmas was running around Grandma and Grandpa's house. He also learned how to say Dada and Mama, and even picked up on a few others words that are in his own language. He is such a joy in our lives, and we are loving every new day with him.
One of the most exciting things that happened in 2011 for us, was finding out mid-August that we were pregnant with our second baby! And then finding out after Thanksgiving that we were having another boy. After finding this out, and after much debate/discussion, it was decided that Alex and Mo would be staying at her parents until the baby arrives in April. While Xander would head back up to Rexburg until the beginning of April for classes.
So that is just a bit of what happened in 2011 with the Xander and Mo Brown family. We are now looking forward to a few awesome things set to happen in 2012!
2012:
Xander is starting his senior year of college, and is set to graduate this December! We couldn't be more excited and READY for this. We are also happy to be having our second little boy, due April 24th! Mo is just anxious for Xander to be home before then.
So, for now, those are the two things we are looking forward to in 2012. But, as this year continues, we will see what other wonderful things are in store! :)
Monday, November 21, 2011
Ponderings and Confessions...
After reading and pondering more on my last post with Bob Stein's thoughts, I realized that there are probably some things I should stand up and speak for. Those who know me really well, (mainly 1-2 close family members, a friend or two, and my wonderful amazing husband); know that I am not a confrontational person. At all. In fact, I try to avoid it as much as possible. I don't like arguments - even philosophical and political "friendly" arguments. They honestly make me uncomfortable. Call it cowardice, weakness, stupidity, childlike, or even naive if you will! But that is me. I may put up a strong "tough girl" front all of the time, but it's really my shield. A way to steer clear of confrontation. As much as I try to keep my emotions in check, they tend to live on the surface most days. I know I hardly, if ever, talk about my religion anywhere or to anybody. And it's because I don't want people, especially those I love and respect, to knock it down, to trash it, demean it, or belittle its significance. Anything that I hold precious and dear to me I keep very close. My family, for example, I keep VERY close to me. I try to call, contact, keep in touch through faceboook, or letters with each and every one of them. Because, as nagging to them as it may be, I love them and never want to lose touch with them.
My belief is the same to me. I am selfish about both, and tend to not want to share any of them. I guess with family, it is all right to be selfish sometimes. But I realize, I shouldn't be so selfish with the things I believe in. (Okay, here comes a little more background of me). I was born and raised as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I grew up with my parents testimonies giving strength to my own. I remember that I LOVED going to primary every Sunday; learning at an early age of my Savior Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father. I can still sing many primary songs, and they always bring happiness and comfort to me. I remember the first time I read the Book of Mormon all the way through on my own, and how I felt the first time I prayed to know if it was true. I was thirteen years old, and felt the Holy Ghost testify to me it was true. I also remember reading and learning about our modern day prophets and apostles, and know that they are men called of God. But most importantly, I remember the day I gained a firm testimony and knowledge that Jesus is the Christ, the only begotten Son of our Heavenly Father. And how that knowledge helped me realize that I am a daughter of God! And He hears and answers my prayers. I know this, because I have seen it throughout my whole life. Jesus Christ is my Savior and my best friend! He is always there, and I constantly speak with him through prayer; both in my heart and on my knees.
I may not shout my belief's from the roof tops, or readily share it with a passing stranger - I think I am still too shy for that. But I do want it known that I believe in Jesus Christ, that He came to this earth to save all men (and women) from sin. I know He gave His life for us, because He loved/loves us that much. I also know that the Book of Mormon is true. And that Joseph Smith was called of God to establish His church on the earth once more. I also want it known that I know our current prophet , President Thomas S. Monson, is called of God to help lead us through these latter days. This is my testimony and my belief's, and if you want to question it fine. I'll answer as best as I can, and pray that you question with an open mind and heart to what I have to say. I will continue to pray for courage and strength to share this belief with others, and hope that they will be kind enough to listen.
For those who may have questions now, I know of an awesome website! :) Most have probably already heard about it, but it's www.mormon.org. I actually enjoy that website myself, and hope you will too.
My belief is the same to me. I am selfish about both, and tend to not want to share any of them. I guess with family, it is all right to be selfish sometimes. But I realize, I shouldn't be so selfish with the things I believe in. (Okay, here comes a little more background of me). I was born and raised as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I grew up with my parents testimonies giving strength to my own. I remember that I LOVED going to primary every Sunday; learning at an early age of my Savior Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father. I can still sing many primary songs, and they always bring happiness and comfort to me. I remember the first time I read the Book of Mormon all the way through on my own, and how I felt the first time I prayed to know if it was true. I was thirteen years old, and felt the Holy Ghost testify to me it was true. I also remember reading and learning about our modern day prophets and apostles, and know that they are men called of God. But most importantly, I remember the day I gained a firm testimony and knowledge that Jesus is the Christ, the only begotten Son of our Heavenly Father. And how that knowledge helped me realize that I am a daughter of God! And He hears and answers my prayers. I know this, because I have seen it throughout my whole life. Jesus Christ is my Savior and my best friend! He is always there, and I constantly speak with him through prayer; both in my heart and on my knees.
I may not shout my belief's from the roof tops, or readily share it with a passing stranger - I think I am still too shy for that. But I do want it known that I believe in Jesus Christ, that He came to this earth to save all men (and women) from sin. I know He gave His life for us, because He loved/loves us that much. I also know that the Book of Mormon is true. And that Joseph Smith was called of God to establish His church on the earth once more. I also want it known that I know our current prophet , President Thomas S. Monson, is called of God to help lead us through these latter days. This is my testimony and my belief's, and if you want to question it fine. I'll answer as best as I can, and pray that you question with an open mind and heart to what I have to say. I will continue to pray for courage and strength to share this belief with others, and hope that they will be kind enough to listen.
For those who may have questions now, I know of an awesome website! :) Most have probably already heard about it, but it's www.mormon.org. I actually enjoy that website myself, and hope you will too.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Not My Own Thoughts, But Definitely Thought Provoking...
After reading this from one of my friends pages, and double checking the sources and validity of it online, I thought this was worth sharing.
Apparently the White House referred to Christmas Trees as Holiday Trees for the first time this year which prompted CBS presenter, Ben Stein, to present this piece which I would like to share with you. I think it applies just as much to many countries as it does to America .
The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning Commentary....
My confession:
I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejeweled trees, Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are, Christmas trees.
It doesn't bother me a bit when people say, 'Merry Christmas' to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it. It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu . If people want a creche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few hundred yards away.
I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from, that America is an explicitly atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution and I don't like it being shoved down my throat.
Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we should worship celebrities and we aren't allowed to worship God ? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too. But there are a lot of us who are wondering where these celebrities came from and where the America we knew went to.
In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.
Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her 'How could God let something like this happen?' (regarding Hurricane Katrina).. Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said, 'I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?'
In light of recent events... terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found a few years ago) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK. Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school. The Bible says thou shalt not kill; thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.
Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave, because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an expert should know what he's talking about. And we said okay.
Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.
Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with 'WE REAP WHAT WE SOW.'
Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says. Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.
Are you laughing yet?
Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it.
Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.
Pass it on if you think it has merit.
If not, then just discard it.... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in.
My Best Regards, Honestly and respectfully,
Ben Stein
Apparently the White House referred to Christmas Trees as Holiday Trees for the first time this year which prompted CBS presenter, Ben Stein, to present this piece which I would like to share with you. I think it applies just as much to many countries as it does to America .
The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning Commentary....
My confession:
I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejeweled trees, Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are, Christmas trees.
It doesn't bother me a bit when people say, 'Merry Christmas' to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it. It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu . If people want a creche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few hundred yards away.
I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from, that America is an explicitly atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution and I don't like it being shoved down my throat.
Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we should worship celebrities and we aren't allowed to worship God ? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too. But there are a lot of us who are wondering where these celebrities came from and where the America we knew went to.
In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.
Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her 'How could God let something like this happen?' (regarding Hurricane Katrina).. Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said, 'I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?'
In light of recent events... terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found a few years ago) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK. Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school. The Bible says thou shalt not kill; thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.
Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave, because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an expert should know what he's talking about. And we said okay.
Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.
Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with 'WE REAP WHAT WE SOW.'
Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says. Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.
Are you laughing yet?
Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it.
Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.
Pass it on if you think it has merit.
If not, then just discard it.... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in.
My Best Regards, Honestly and respectfully,
Ben Stein
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Pregnancy, Fall, Family, and other SUPER LATE Updates
It has been a long time since I blogged...I guess I just haven't known what to say. Oddly enough, since most people who know me really well, know I like to speak my mind often. Looking at my last post I had to laugh a little, since - for those who don't know - I am about 15 weeks pregnant with our second baby. So many things have been happening, I don't even know where to begin. Or, even if I should elaborate on the past months.
I guess we'll start with the pregnancy. Alex has been doing REALLY well at night, getting up maybe once every night, if at all. Xander and I had started talking about the possibility of having another child, and what that would do to us and our current "college family" life. It took us almost a year to get pregnant with Alex, so, being the silly girl that I am, I assumed it would take us at LEAST six months to get pregnant with number two. We started trying a month before Alex's first birthday, and got pregnant on the first try. It was a huge shock to us, pleasant though. I was personally unprepared for it, expecting a much longer period of trying. After some time though, as I suppose happens with most women, I became rather excited to have another child.
Getting through this first trimester has been a lot harder than it was when I was pregnant with Alex. I am sick and tired a lot more often, I can't seem to keep anything down - especially sugar. Which, I suppose is a good thing, since I could only keep sugary foods down with Alex. Having a one year old who needs/wants your constant attention, and who is just starting to walk everywhere, is VERY taxing on my already tired and starving body. I am constantly feeling like a horrible mother to Alex! He doesn't always get the best meals, and rarely gets baths now - which is his favorite thing. I'm lucky if I can get more than two baths in a week for him. I feel horrible about it, and helpless too. Whenever I try to get up and do things, my energy lasts about ten minutes, if I'm lucky. I feel trapped in another woman's ailing body.
I had high hopes for my second trimester, since my first pregnancy I never felt better after week 14. But so far, I am still sick, and can't keep a lot of food down. Every pregnancy is so different! And I am just hoping after another week I'll finally have that "burst of energy" they talk about in the second trimester. I am so ready to be done with the sick, and finally able and capable of taking care of my family again.
Fall has become my favorite time of year! I love the changing colors, the colder (but not freezing) weather change, and especially all the holidays that come with it. These holidays always make me homesick. And I look forward to Christmas so much faster each year.
AND THANK GOODNESS FOR FAMILY! My wonderful mother sent my little sister Leah out to help me for a week, and she has definitely been a godsend. And on top of that, my little brother also cam up to help, and my wonderful big sister Annie came to help, and will be coming up again (with my sister Clare) on Monday to have Halloween with us, and also help. Such charity, love, and support from all of them has been so wonderful, that it constantly brings tears to my eyes. How I love family. Lately I have been so homesick for all of them, even my extended Brown family, that I told my husband it was time to go home again. Of course, being the wonderful practical man he is, he told me I was already home.
However, this got us to talking about our future after school, and we both feel that we need to be in the Kansas City, MO, area (close, but not overly close, to our families). After we decided I felt so excited and now anxious for Xander to graduate. There is nothing more important to me than family. And I want my children to know their cousins, grandparents, aunts and uncles. I want them to be best friends growing up.
Well, this happens every time I post something - SORRY! - I always end up venting my mind out, and you end up getting a bunch of words instead of pictures. I'm not the best blogger ever, but oh well! :) I do like to speak my mind.
I guess we'll start with the pregnancy. Alex has been doing REALLY well at night, getting up maybe once every night, if at all. Xander and I had started talking about the possibility of having another child, and what that would do to us and our current "college family" life. It took us almost a year to get pregnant with Alex, so, being the silly girl that I am, I assumed it would take us at LEAST six months to get pregnant with number two. We started trying a month before Alex's first birthday, and got pregnant on the first try. It was a huge shock to us, pleasant though. I was personally unprepared for it, expecting a much longer period of trying. After some time though, as I suppose happens with most women, I became rather excited to have another child.
Getting through this first trimester has been a lot harder than it was when I was pregnant with Alex. I am sick and tired a lot more often, I can't seem to keep anything down - especially sugar. Which, I suppose is a good thing, since I could only keep sugary foods down with Alex. Having a one year old who needs/wants your constant attention, and who is just starting to walk everywhere, is VERY taxing on my already tired and starving body. I am constantly feeling like a horrible mother to Alex! He doesn't always get the best meals, and rarely gets baths now - which is his favorite thing. I'm lucky if I can get more than two baths in a week for him. I feel horrible about it, and helpless too. Whenever I try to get up and do things, my energy lasts about ten minutes, if I'm lucky. I feel trapped in another woman's ailing body.
I had high hopes for my second trimester, since my first pregnancy I never felt better after week 14. But so far, I am still sick, and can't keep a lot of food down. Every pregnancy is so different! And I am just hoping after another week I'll finally have that "burst of energy" they talk about in the second trimester. I am so ready to be done with the sick, and finally able and capable of taking care of my family again.
Fall has become my favorite time of year! I love the changing colors, the colder (but not freezing) weather change, and especially all the holidays that come with it. These holidays always make me homesick. And I look forward to Christmas so much faster each year.
AND THANK GOODNESS FOR FAMILY! My wonderful mother sent my little sister Leah out to help me for a week, and she has definitely been a godsend. And on top of that, my little brother also cam up to help, and my wonderful big sister Annie came to help, and will be coming up again (with my sister Clare) on Monday to have Halloween with us, and also help. Such charity, love, and support from all of them has been so wonderful, that it constantly brings tears to my eyes. How I love family. Lately I have been so homesick for all of them, even my extended Brown family, that I told my husband it was time to go home again. Of course, being the wonderful practical man he is, he told me I was already home.
However, this got us to talking about our future after school, and we both feel that we need to be in the Kansas City, MO, area (close, but not overly close, to our families). After we decided I felt so excited and now anxious for Xander to graduate. There is nothing more important to me than family. And I want my children to know their cousins, grandparents, aunts and uncles. I want them to be best friends growing up.
Well, this happens every time I post something - SORRY! - I always end up venting my mind out, and you end up getting a bunch of words instead of pictures. I'm not the best blogger ever, but oh well! :) I do like to speak my mind.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Sleeping Through the Night...Time for Another One??
Lately Alex has been wonderful enough to sleep all night for me. He has been doing this for the past two weeks now, and I'm wondering when he'll suddenly stop and make me get up again with him. Sometimes I'll hear him up and talking, or crying slightly, but I usually give it anywhere from five to ten minutes before checking on him. Because, lately he has been putting himself back to sleep. SUPER nice! I think having a set bedtime routine/schedule every night has definitely helped.
As taking care of Alex has become a lot easier, and our daily routine has become more set in stone, my mind - almost guiltily - wanders to having baby number two. The thought is slightly exciting and yet very frightening. Xander and I have talked about it, and are not sure when would be the best time to even start. Originally we had planned on waiting until he was done with school - Alex would be a little over two years old by then. But, I'm not sure I want to have my kids more than two years apart. Part of me just wants to have them and get the whole process over with - the other part tells me I am being selfish and that we need to do what is best for our current situation. As we talked about it some more, and realized that Xander will be leaving for his internship anywhere between January and May 2012, we decided that we would either have to have the baby around May, or after August.
As much planning as I like to do though, I know that it is all in Heavenly Father's hands. He knows when we should have baby number two, and when the best time will be. I just wish I could in on that little tidbit of information. :) Another thing that has been nagging at me though, is my weight. I told myself that I did not want to be as heavy and out of shape as I was with Alex. I would prefer to be at LEAST 30 lbs lighter from my current weight. (I'm 177 if you must know). ;) However, I realize that the amount of weight is not as important as my body being healthy. The truth is, I hate working out. I absolutely LOVE the results, but hate the effort and diligence that must be put into it. I wish there was a magic pill for this sort of thing, but there isn't. And even a pill wont help in the long run.
All right, so there really wasn't much of a point to all of this ranting and blabbering. I just thought I would share some different things happening with us. On a side note, Xander is still doing great with school, and I am trying to walk everyday with Alex. :) Thankfully the weather has decided to be nice again. AND we are getting ready for another move. Just to an apartment, as the people we are currently renting from will be back in August. Life is good.
As taking care of Alex has become a lot easier, and our daily routine has become more set in stone, my mind - almost guiltily - wanders to having baby number two. The thought is slightly exciting and yet very frightening. Xander and I have talked about it, and are not sure when would be the best time to even start. Originally we had planned on waiting until he was done with school - Alex would be a little over two years old by then. But, I'm not sure I want to have my kids more than two years apart. Part of me just wants to have them and get the whole process over with - the other part tells me I am being selfish and that we need to do what is best for our current situation. As we talked about it some more, and realized that Xander will be leaving for his internship anywhere between January and May 2012, we decided that we would either have to have the baby around May, or after August.
As much planning as I like to do though, I know that it is all in Heavenly Father's hands. He knows when we should have baby number two, and when the best time will be. I just wish I could in on that little tidbit of information. :) Another thing that has been nagging at me though, is my weight. I told myself that I did not want to be as heavy and out of shape as I was with Alex. I would prefer to be at LEAST 30 lbs lighter from my current weight. (I'm 177 if you must know). ;) However, I realize that the amount of weight is not as important as my body being healthy. The truth is, I hate working out. I absolutely LOVE the results, but hate the effort and diligence that must be put into it. I wish there was a magic pill for this sort of thing, but there isn't. And even a pill wont help in the long run.
All right, so there really wasn't much of a point to all of this ranting and blabbering. I just thought I would share some different things happening with us. On a side note, Xander is still doing great with school, and I am trying to walk everyday with Alex. :) Thankfully the weather has decided to be nice again. AND we are getting ready for another move. Just to an apartment, as the people we are currently renting from will be back in August. Life is good.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Food Update
First of all...Thanks everyone for the reassurance and support for the bottle feeding! And the baby food. It's always nice to know you're not alone in those things.
As for an update, I have stopped worrying about his eating habits so much. Don't get me wrong, I still worry, just not as much. Alex eats - mainly orange foods and now fruit (As long as there are bananas in them). And has been absolutely LOVING his bottle and formula. He gets so excited every time he sees me shaking up his bottle. It actually makes me feel pretty happy and excited as well. However, I only give it to him twice a day, and the rest of the day is water. He still doesn't like drinking juice. Oddly enough, since he has now realized he likes to eat fruit. As for the vegetables, anything orange is a go. So, I have learned to mix those orange veggies with others, and he still gobbles them up.
It has been such a relief having him eat again. However, it still gets frustrating when he gets distracted or starts spitting food at me. I have come to realize that he just wants to feed himself. And sadly, I have to let him. I say SADLY because he makes such a mess...and I have to clean him up. Yes, I knew that was part of the job description when I became a mother, but it doesn't mean I have to like it! :)
Since he likes to feed himself so much - and I mean, he really does enjoy it a lot. I have started giving him table foods - super soft and cooked veggies. Like corn, carrots, sweet and regular peas, bread, and some fruits. Most of it ends up between his legs or on the floor, but it's a little easier to clean up than baby food. Now that feeding is becoming less of an issue, I have been able to relax a little more and get him down to a schedule. It's been wonderful! He has been so much happier and relaxed. And much easier to handle too. It almost makes me want to start on number two...ALMOST. But not quite. ;)
As for an update, I have stopped worrying about his eating habits so much. Don't get me wrong, I still worry, just not as much. Alex eats - mainly orange foods and now fruit (As long as there are bananas in them). And has been absolutely LOVING his bottle and formula. He gets so excited every time he sees me shaking up his bottle. It actually makes me feel pretty happy and excited as well. However, I only give it to him twice a day, and the rest of the day is water. He still doesn't like drinking juice. Oddly enough, since he has now realized he likes to eat fruit. As for the vegetables, anything orange is a go. So, I have learned to mix those orange veggies with others, and he still gobbles them up.
It has been such a relief having him eat again. However, it still gets frustrating when he gets distracted or starts spitting food at me. I have come to realize that he just wants to feed himself. And sadly, I have to let him. I say SADLY because he makes such a mess...and I have to clean him up. Yes, I knew that was part of the job description when I became a mother, but it doesn't mean I have to like it! :)
Since he likes to feed himself so much - and I mean, he really does enjoy it a lot. I have started giving him table foods - super soft and cooked veggies. Like corn, carrots, sweet and regular peas, bread, and some fruits. Most of it ends up between his legs or on the floor, but it's a little easier to clean up than baby food. Now that feeding is becoming less of an issue, I have been able to relax a little more and get him down to a schedule. It's been wonderful! He has been so much happier and relaxed. And much easier to handle too. It almost makes me want to start on number two...ALMOST. But not quite. ;)
Thursday, April 28, 2011
No More Breastfeeding!
After a long battle with myself over whether or not I should continue breastfeeding Alex, I have decided to call it quits. This has been a true struggle for me, because the entire time I felt like I need to be ashamed for even considering stopping. I felt as though all of my family members and few friends were going to ridicule me, or worse, lecture me about being a selfish mother. After all, I was told that "A baby should be breastfed until at least a year old." "If you can breastfeed your child than do it! They get more nutrition from you than anywhere else." Even now, it still scares me to stop breastfeeding Alex. He is, after all, just eight months old now.
However, this past month has been a very hard struggle for me with breastfeeding. Mainly I feel Alex knows he doesn't have to eat his baby food, because he knows he'll get food from me later. He has also begun to grab at my shirt and try to pull it down to eat from me. That is the most annoying and embarressing thing EVER! And I don't want him to EVER think he can do that to me - especially in public. Some mothers may laugh and say it's cute, funny, or just him showing he knows where the food comes from. But for me, it's bothersome and embarressing. Also, he has been THE most distracted breastfeeder ever! He just doesn't eat like he used to. Except at night, when he's half asleep anyways.
So, today I've decided that it is going to be best for both of us if I start weaning him off of me. I'll start doing some formula to compensate, at least until he's a year old. But I am hoping he will be completely weaned off of me by the time he is 9 to 10 months old. Definitely off of me completely by 10 months though. And yes, this really was a tough decision. Because I do love feeding him from me - there is something so tender and sweet in those moments, and I'll never forget them. But, when it gets annoying and frustrating for both people, it's time to stop.
So, ridicule and shun me all you want! I am refusing to budge from this decision. I know it is going to be what is best for both me and Alex.
However, this past month has been a very hard struggle for me with breastfeeding. Mainly I feel Alex knows he doesn't have to eat his baby food, because he knows he'll get food from me later. He has also begun to grab at my shirt and try to pull it down to eat from me. That is the most annoying and embarressing thing EVER! And I don't want him to EVER think he can do that to me - especially in public. Some mothers may laugh and say it's cute, funny, or just him showing he knows where the food comes from. But for me, it's bothersome and embarressing. Also, he has been THE most distracted breastfeeder ever! He just doesn't eat like he used to. Except at night, when he's half asleep anyways.
So, today I've decided that it is going to be best for both of us if I start weaning him off of me. I'll start doing some formula to compensate, at least until he's a year old. But I am hoping he will be completely weaned off of me by the time he is 9 to 10 months old. Definitely off of me completely by 10 months though. And yes, this really was a tough decision. Because I do love feeding him from me - there is something so tender and sweet in those moments, and I'll never forget them. But, when it gets annoying and frustrating for both people, it's time to stop.
So, ridicule and shun me all you want! I am refusing to budge from this decision. I know it is going to be what is best for both me and Alex.
To eat, or not to eat...
Feeding Alex baby food has definitely been a struggle for me. I keep hearing all of these stories from my friends who have or have had babies, that they just LOVED their baby food, and it was so much fun feeding them. I am not so lucky. Alex hates his baby food - unless of course it's sweet potatoes, banana mango smoothie, or oatmeal. Those are the only things he likes to eat with vigor. Not a very healthy diet alone, so other things must be forced upon him.
He is a VERY stubborn boy! (No question where he gets THAT from, I know.) And He keeps his mouth tightly shut when he doesn't like what we're feeding him. We have to pursuade him to open his mouth by making him laugh, blowing in his face, or even try to pry it open with his spoon. It has been a struggle trying to feed him - he just doesn't like anything but me. And, as flattering as that is, he is also becoming a horribly distracted nurser. He eats for 3-4 minutes then pulls away and wants to crawl away. It worries me that he may not be getting enough nourishment, or even enough to drink. Did I mention he also HATES his juice? What kind of a kid hates juice?? Oh wait, Mine does. At least he likes water well enough. Thank goodness for that!
Anyways, it has all been in vain it seems, and I can't comprehend in the least what that kid of mine is thinking. I can't believe I birthed such a picky eater! For pete's sake, I love food! And so does Xander, so why does our son hate it? *sigh* It is definitely frustrating for me...and I am trying so hard to understand what he wants, and how I can make sure he is getting enough to eat. Maybe, since he is teething really bad, that is the reason. I just don't know yet, but I am losing heart everytime he refuses to eat. Hopefully we can try better as time goes on. And hopefully this is just a phase he is going through. We'll find out. Anyways, just me venting some frustrations.
He is a VERY stubborn boy! (No question where he gets THAT from, I know.) And He keeps his mouth tightly shut when he doesn't like what we're feeding him. We have to pursuade him to open his mouth by making him laugh, blowing in his face, or even try to pry it open with his spoon. It has been a struggle trying to feed him - he just doesn't like anything but me. And, as flattering as that is, he is also becoming a horribly distracted nurser. He eats for 3-4 minutes then pulls away and wants to crawl away. It worries me that he may not be getting enough nourishment, or even enough to drink. Did I mention he also HATES his juice? What kind of a kid hates juice?? Oh wait, Mine does. At least he likes water well enough. Thank goodness for that!
Anyways, it has all been in vain it seems, and I can't comprehend in the least what that kid of mine is thinking. I can't believe I birthed such a picky eater! For pete's sake, I love food! And so does Xander, so why does our son hate it? *sigh* It is definitely frustrating for me...and I am trying so hard to understand what he wants, and how I can make sure he is getting enough to eat. Maybe, since he is teething really bad, that is the reason. I just don't know yet, but I am losing heart everytime he refuses to eat. Hopefully we can try better as time goes on. And hopefully this is just a phase he is going through. We'll find out. Anyways, just me venting some frustrations.
Monday, April 18, 2011
It's been a while.....
So, it has definitely been a LONG time since I last blogged...I feel as though I should apologize, but I really see no reason too. :) For a quick life update, we are now back in Rexburg, ID, and Xander finished up the semester on the 9th, and is getting ready to start the next one tomorrow.
Alex and I have been through a LOT these past three and a half months. Especially when going from tons of family around to just mom in a little over 3 days time, it is a LOT to adjust to. Alex had to learn that he wasn't going to get as much attention 24/7, and I had to almost re-learn how to take care of my own baby, without any helpers. Through lots of tears, frustration, screaming and crying - I've made it through. ;) Oh, and Alex too. It has actually been quite a fun experience for me though, and I can say that now that we have all adjusted of course. I feel like I know Alex a lot better than before; I also feel more confident when making decisions for him. I will admit, there are still many times when I get frustrated with him, and just want him to "Do what Mommy says! No questions." But then I have to remind myself that he is just a baby, and hasn't a clue what I'm talking about yet. I know he understands some things, and is understanding more everyday, so I am the one who just has to be patient. Which is very hard for me.
One thing is definitely for certain. Motherhood is no walk in the park. And more often then not, you always seem to end up the "bad guy" at least once or twice a day. Understanding that a baby's wants are his needs has also been hard for me. Because I have to tell myself that he may WANT to eat the TV and computer cords, but it is better that he not. Motherhood is also a very unselfish calling. There really isn't any room for selfishness when raising a baby! Because they take up all of your time and attention. So yes, I have learned and re-learned a lot these past couple of months, and am still alive to tell it all. Hopefully I'll be able to get back into blogging a bit more, especially as I get a nice routine down for Alex. In the meantime, here are some pictures and hopefully the video works too. He has definitely grown a lot! :)
Monday, December 6, 2010
Some Days are Lazy Days!
Some days are just lazy days...whether we want them to be or not. There are just days when we are stuck in our pajamas all day long. Either you and the baby didn't get much sleep, you were up all night doing holiday preparations, or you found yourself unable to stop playing a game or put down a book - as the case may be.
As for me, I often find myself just feeling lazy, tired, and completely unmotivated to do much. On those days, I typically get frustrated that nothing has gotten done around the house, and I still have a long list of things to do. The one joy you can find though, is that your child is clean, bathed, and smartly dressed for the day...even if you haven't been able to get a shower in for the last two days.
The trick, I've realized, is to just to tell yourself that you won't get anything done today, that you are just going to sit around all day and take care of the baby. And then, if by some miracle you sneak a shower in, get a load of laundry done, or even - *gasp*- make the bed! Then you feel like you have actually accomplished something, and you can feel a little better about yourself.
Part of being a mother of a new baby is to realize that not everything is going to go as you have planned it to. That's not to say that you wont have those few rare days when they do go as planned - aren't they the best? - but just be prepared for when they don't happen. And don't feel bad, because seriously...most people do not have a spotless house on a daily basis. At least, not if they have children! :)
Yes, a shorter blog today, but just some things I've been dealing with! Especially with the holiday season coming around. :)
As for me, I often find myself just feeling lazy, tired, and completely unmotivated to do much. On those days, I typically get frustrated that nothing has gotten done around the house, and I still have a long list of things to do. The one joy you can find though, is that your child is clean, bathed, and smartly dressed for the day...even if you haven't been able to get a shower in for the last two days.
The trick, I've realized, is to just to tell yourself that you won't get anything done today, that you are just going to sit around all day and take care of the baby. And then, if by some miracle you sneak a shower in, get a load of laundry done, or even - *gasp*- make the bed! Then you feel like you have actually accomplished something, and you can feel a little better about yourself.
Part of being a mother of a new baby is to realize that not everything is going to go as you have planned it to. That's not to say that you wont have those few rare days when they do go as planned - aren't they the best? - but just be prepared for when they don't happen. And don't feel bad, because seriously...most people do not have a spotless house on a daily basis. At least, not if they have children! :)
Yes, a shorter blog today, but just some things I've been dealing with! Especially with the holiday season coming around. :)
Monday, November 22, 2010
Motherhood - a new job
When you have a child, you are thrown into a new job. Sometimes it feels like a complete change in careers, other times it simply adds on to the job you already have. And for many wonderful mothers, they still have to work during the day, and come home to their husbands and children and work again - often through the night. I admire those mothers greatly.
But what comes with this new job? For me, it comes with a lot of joy, definitely stress, hard-work, learning, crying, and sometimes feeling scared and insecure. Like many mothers, the first baby is almost your "trial and error" baby, because you are trying to do everything everyone has told you to do, and then realize none of it works - because, as I've said before, every child is different. So then you learn, and grow together, and slowly work your way into a schedule of sorts. But then, there are those days, when whatever you do - even if it seems to have worked a thousand times before - nothing you do is stopping your child from crying. You wonder if it's your fault, you wonder if they are hurting, and you wish desperately that they could just talk to you and tell you what's wrong. But they can't, and we must struggle to learn patience, long-suffering, and allow our love for them to help us through.
Motherhood, I am learning, is one of THE most stressful jobs on the body I will ever have. Sleep is almost non-existent at times, food is rushed and cold, your back almost constantly aches from lifting, showers are rushed and never alone, and often you find you are losing your hair and grinding your teeth at night. Which, by the way, cause horrible and unwanted headaches during the day. Why didn't our mothers tell us about this? Why weren't we warned? Probably because we wouldn't ever want to have children if we knew. But I am glad they don't tell us - because who would really want to miss out on the infinite joy that comes from your child? A spirit child of our Heavenly Father, given to us to watch over and protect.
I'll admit, there are MANY nights where I cringe when I hear Alex cry, and I simply want to throw my pillow over my head and pretend it's not MY child crying. And often, after dragging myself out of bed to feed him, or change his diaper, I quietly go back to bed and secretly pray that he wont wake up again - at least for another two to three hours. There are times when I feel so apprehensive about him waking up, I end up not getting any sleep because I am so afraid to hear his cry at any moment. Talk about the big stress right there. This is all definitely a learning experience for me. I keep telling myself to just sleep, and not worry about Alex waking up at all - but who will tell my teeth to stop grinding while I sleep?
Motherhood is hard work, it really is a full-time job! No matter what else you do. And there is usually no vacation time from it, no bonuses for it, and definitely very little health benefits from it. But as a new mother, I have hope. I am excited for my child's future, and even secretly desire to have a few more right away. Why would I want more right away? Well, being a mother - even without the parades and praises we should receive for it - does have it's little celebrations. Like watching your baby roll over by themselves for the first time! Or even finally hold their heads up by themselves. I cannot even describe the joy that comes to your heart at those times.
Being a mother is hard....but that is also what makes those small accomplishments so worth it!
But what comes with this new job? For me, it comes with a lot of joy, definitely stress, hard-work, learning, crying, and sometimes feeling scared and insecure. Like many mothers, the first baby is almost your "trial and error" baby, because you are trying to do everything everyone has told you to do, and then realize none of it works - because, as I've said before, every child is different. So then you learn, and grow together, and slowly work your way into a schedule of sorts. But then, there are those days, when whatever you do - even if it seems to have worked a thousand times before - nothing you do is stopping your child from crying. You wonder if it's your fault, you wonder if they are hurting, and you wish desperately that they could just talk to you and tell you what's wrong. But they can't, and we must struggle to learn patience, long-suffering, and allow our love for them to help us through.
Motherhood, I am learning, is one of THE most stressful jobs on the body I will ever have. Sleep is almost non-existent at times, food is rushed and cold, your back almost constantly aches from lifting, showers are rushed and never alone, and often you find you are losing your hair and grinding your teeth at night. Which, by the way, cause horrible and unwanted headaches during the day. Why didn't our mothers tell us about this? Why weren't we warned? Probably because we wouldn't ever want to have children if we knew. But I am glad they don't tell us - because who would really want to miss out on the infinite joy that comes from your child? A spirit child of our Heavenly Father, given to us to watch over and protect.
I'll admit, there are MANY nights where I cringe when I hear Alex cry, and I simply want to throw my pillow over my head and pretend it's not MY child crying. And often, after dragging myself out of bed to feed him, or change his diaper, I quietly go back to bed and secretly pray that he wont wake up again - at least for another two to three hours. There are times when I feel so apprehensive about him waking up, I end up not getting any sleep because I am so afraid to hear his cry at any moment. Talk about the big stress right there. This is all definitely a learning experience for me. I keep telling myself to just sleep, and not worry about Alex waking up at all - but who will tell my teeth to stop grinding while I sleep?
Motherhood is hard work, it really is a full-time job! No matter what else you do. And there is usually no vacation time from it, no bonuses for it, and definitely very little health benefits from it. But as a new mother, I have hope. I am excited for my child's future, and even secretly desire to have a few more right away. Why would I want more right away? Well, being a mother - even without the parades and praises we should receive for it - does have it's little celebrations. Like watching your baby roll over by themselves for the first time! Or even finally hold their heads up by themselves. I cannot even describe the joy that comes to your heart at those times.
Being a mother is hard....but that is also what makes those small accomplishments so worth it!
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Leftover Baby Belly
We finally get pregnant, and watch with joy and amazement as our bellies begin to grow with a new small life inside of it. We wait anxiously - and often angrily during the last week or so - for their arrival. And then suddenly, our little bundles of joy are here! We're ecstatic! Elated! And most of all, extremely exhausted. Those first couple of hours with our husband and baby are the best, and one of the greatest bonding experiences we'll ever have.
And then suddenly, during all this joy, you get up to use the bathroom, sit on the toilet and get a good look at your belly. For me, I wanted to scream and cry at the same time! It looked like a wrinkly, stretch mark scarred, deflated balloon. The worst part was that when you stand up, it just hangs there...you can even pick it up and bounce it around. That image still sends shivers down my spine. Everyone tells you that it will go away, your skin will be back to normal soon, and that those stretch marks will simply disappear into thin silvery lines. It has now been nearly three months since I've had Alex...and I still have saggy skin, and lots of ruddy red stretch marks. Apparently, it all doesn't "just go away on their own" and everything goes back to normal - in fact, don't even get me started on my new set of hips! Who knew I would ever have hips. Oh no, the whole process takes almost ANOTHER nine months just to get your body back...and that's usually only if you are working out with it.
Another scare some women may get, is that they finally put their jeans on, maybe a loose fitting top, and think they are looking pretty good. That is, until they come face to face with the mirror...then you take one look and break down crying, saying "OMG! I look like my MOTHER!" No offense to my own mother of course, she said the same thing after her first baby too. And when the tears finally stop, you realize all new mothers are going through the same thing, just on different levels. And then you try to tell yourself that it's okay, this too shall pass. Someday you might get your body back...if you're willing to work out for it of course.
In the end though, when you look at your baby smiling and cooing at you, you know - deep down in that saggy belly of yours - that it really was all worth it, and maybe this is natures way of telling you to get in shape and get healthy. And you bet I'll be writing about my baby belly skin when Alex is about nine months, and letting you know if the belly does go slightly back to normal. ----on a side note, I hardly find the time to work out, so...as sporadic as my work outs are, will also determine how fast I can get my body back. So thanks Mother Nature! Thanks for ruining my pretty belly. ;-)
And then suddenly, during all this joy, you get up to use the bathroom, sit on the toilet and get a good look at your belly. For me, I wanted to scream and cry at the same time! It looked like a wrinkly, stretch mark scarred, deflated balloon. The worst part was that when you stand up, it just hangs there...you can even pick it up and bounce it around. That image still sends shivers down my spine. Everyone tells you that it will go away, your skin will be back to normal soon, and that those stretch marks will simply disappear into thin silvery lines. It has now been nearly three months since I've had Alex...and I still have saggy skin, and lots of ruddy red stretch marks. Apparently, it all doesn't "just go away on their own" and everything goes back to normal - in fact, don't even get me started on my new set of hips! Who knew I would ever have hips. Oh no, the whole process takes almost ANOTHER nine months just to get your body back...and that's usually only if you are working out with it.
Another scare some women may get, is that they finally put their jeans on, maybe a loose fitting top, and think they are looking pretty good. That is, until they come face to face with the mirror...then you take one look and break down crying, saying "OMG! I look like my MOTHER!" No offense to my own mother of course, she said the same thing after her first baby too. And when the tears finally stop, you realize all new mothers are going through the same thing, just on different levels. And then you try to tell yourself that it's okay, this too shall pass. Someday you might get your body back...if you're willing to work out for it of course.
In the end though, when you look at your baby smiling and cooing at you, you know - deep down in that saggy belly of yours - that it really was all worth it, and maybe this is natures way of telling you to get in shape and get healthy. And you bet I'll be writing about my baby belly skin when Alex is about nine months, and letting you know if the belly does go slightly back to normal. ----on a side note, I hardly find the time to work out, so...as sporadic as my work outs are, will also determine how fast I can get my body back. So thanks Mother Nature! Thanks for ruining my pretty belly. ;-)
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Baby/Family update
I realized that putting random updates on a facebook status, really isn't a full on update at all! So, amongst my other momma blogging, I'm going to start putting in my family updates as well. Here we go!
Alex is now 11 weeks old, and weighed in at 11 lbs 10 oz and was 23 inches long at his two month check up. He is growing up so fast! He is starting to hold his head up a lot more, loves sitting up or standing up, and absolutely HATES tummy time. He also prefers to be held as much as possible, which, living with the grandparents isn't too hard. I try to keep him on his playmat or in his bouncer as much as possible, but it usually only lasts 10-15 minutes, sometimes less. He has the sweetest demeanor, and is starting to smile a lot more. He is still pretty much a mommy and daddy boy, and doesn't like other people holding him for very long. I try not to worry about that though, because it's just a stage he's in right now. I do worry about his weight gain though! I keep thinking he is not chunky enough yet, or that he needs to weigh more. But, my pediatrician said that he's right on target for the "average" baby weight gain. *sigh* I have an average baby. :) Thank goodness he's not below!
As for Xander, he is still working up on Fort Leavenworth, and absolutely loving his job! Apparently, doing accounting stuff is super exciting for him...thank goodness that's what he is majoring in. We have also been discussing the idea about coming back here after he graduates, and buying a house and settling down in a job on Fort Leavenworth. At first I was completely against it, I wanted us to be away from family and on our own as much as possible. But, if the job Xander gets here is what makes him happy, and he actually enjoys working, then by golly! I am going to learn to LOVE Leavenworth, KS. It really is a black hole. ;)
As for me, I am excited for what the future will bring my budding little family, and where life is going to take us. I love being a mother! I think I mention that quite often. :) But I do; it has it's challenges, it's ups and downs, and it even gets frustrating at times, but it really is so rewarding. I am also scheduling my time a lot better lately, so now I can take at least an hour or two out of my day to work on my writing. Yes, I love to write fantasy stories! It is definitely a passion of mine, and maybe one day I'll get published...or not. :) I would actually have to finish one.
So there you have it. A quick update of the Brown family. I'll be posting some family photos soon too! My wonderful sister Rocky took the pictures for us.
Alex is now 11 weeks old, and weighed in at 11 lbs 10 oz and was 23 inches long at his two month check up. He is growing up so fast! He is starting to hold his head up a lot more, loves sitting up or standing up, and absolutely HATES tummy time. He also prefers to be held as much as possible, which, living with the grandparents isn't too hard. I try to keep him on his playmat or in his bouncer as much as possible, but it usually only lasts 10-15 minutes, sometimes less. He has the sweetest demeanor, and is starting to smile a lot more. He is still pretty much a mommy and daddy boy, and doesn't like other people holding him for very long. I try not to worry about that though, because it's just a stage he's in right now. I do worry about his weight gain though! I keep thinking he is not chunky enough yet, or that he needs to weigh more. But, my pediatrician said that he's right on target for the "average" baby weight gain. *sigh* I have an average baby. :) Thank goodness he's not below!
As for Xander, he is still working up on Fort Leavenworth, and absolutely loving his job! Apparently, doing accounting stuff is super exciting for him...thank goodness that's what he is majoring in. We have also been discussing the idea about coming back here after he graduates, and buying a house and settling down in a job on Fort Leavenworth. At first I was completely against it, I wanted us to be away from family and on our own as much as possible. But, if the job Xander gets here is what makes him happy, and he actually enjoys working, then by golly! I am going to learn to LOVE Leavenworth, KS. It really is a black hole. ;)
As for me, I am excited for what the future will bring my budding little family, and where life is going to take us. I love being a mother! I think I mention that quite often. :) But I do; it has it's challenges, it's ups and downs, and it even gets frustrating at times, but it really is so rewarding. I am also scheduling my time a lot better lately, so now I can take at least an hour or two out of my day to work on my writing. Yes, I love to write fantasy stories! It is definitely a passion of mine, and maybe one day I'll get published...or not. :) I would actually have to finish one.
So there you have it. A quick update of the Brown family. I'll be posting some family photos soon too! My wonderful sister Rocky took the pictures for us.
Friday, November 12, 2010
The Art of Breastfeeding
Being able to breastfeed your child takes both time and patience. It can definitely have it's ups and downs, but the rewards are great. I wish to say right now, that just because some are unable to breastfeed or have no desire, there is nothing with those circumstances/choices. We each have different and varying circumstances in our lives, and we learn to deal with them and even work around them.
Breastfeeding Alex has definitely been interesting, even from the very beginning. When Alex came out, they put him right onto my chest and he instantly began "rooting" around on me. Rooting is the term many use to describe when babies start opening and closing their mouths and search around for your nipple. I knew instantly that he was going to be a great breastfeeder! Especially after he latched on so quickly when I did begin feeding him. Everyone warned me about sore nipples, cracking skin, and even swollen breasts once my milk came in. I did experience the sore nipples and swollen breasts, but luckily not the cracking skin. Alex was a great at nursing! And I was instantly rewarded with the joy every mother feels when their child latches onto their breast and then stares up at them with gratitude and love.
As great as Alex was at nursing, when he began sleeping more than eating, and I started losing my milk, it was devestating for me! To know that I couldn't provide for my baby was the worst feeling I've ever had. I felt almost useless and even ashamed that I couldn't give my child food, and that he was starving. We luckily had some formula from the hospital, and used that to sate his hunger pains. It killed me to give him that bottle, and I was hurt that I had allowed my milk to run out. Thankfully I had my mother on hand, and she was able to help me get Alex back on the breast the next day. Since then I have put him on a every 2-3 hour feeding schedule, and pump as often as I can on the side. Thankfully I haven't had a repeat of that episode.
I am grateful that I am able to breastfeed my baby, even though it can get frusterating at times. Breastfeeding has a way of tying you down at times, and puts time limits on most - if not all - activities. It can also be funny and rather annoying qhwn your baby starts playing around with your nipple, their "first toy" as many mothers call it. At first funny, and then annoying when you just want them to eat and get it over with. Breastfeeding can also be painful, especially when they pull away really hard, or when the teeth start coming in and they bite you on accident. In the end though, breastfeeding helps create a special bond between the mother and the baby. It does not take long for babies to know which parent will give them the food, it's almost as if they can smell it on you. Breastfeeding can also become a special time for you and your baby - a quiet time of reflection even. And really, you cannot beat the benefits that come with breastfeeding your baby! There is no duplicating the nutritional benefits that are in your God given breast milk!
I hope those who cannot or choose not to breastfeed do not take offense to this thought process and idea of mine. As I said, it is not for everyone, but I highly recommend it if you can do it.
Breastfeeding Alex has definitely been interesting, even from the very beginning. When Alex came out, they put him right onto my chest and he instantly began "rooting" around on me. Rooting is the term many use to describe when babies start opening and closing their mouths and search around for your nipple. I knew instantly that he was going to be a great breastfeeder! Especially after he latched on so quickly when I did begin feeding him. Everyone warned me about sore nipples, cracking skin, and even swollen breasts once my milk came in. I did experience the sore nipples and swollen breasts, but luckily not the cracking skin. Alex was a great at nursing! And I was instantly rewarded with the joy every mother feels when their child latches onto their breast and then stares up at them with gratitude and love.
As great as Alex was at nursing, when he began sleeping more than eating, and I started losing my milk, it was devestating for me! To know that I couldn't provide for my baby was the worst feeling I've ever had. I felt almost useless and even ashamed that I couldn't give my child food, and that he was starving. We luckily had some formula from the hospital, and used that to sate his hunger pains. It killed me to give him that bottle, and I was hurt that I had allowed my milk to run out. Thankfully I had my mother on hand, and she was able to help me get Alex back on the breast the next day. Since then I have put him on a every 2-3 hour feeding schedule, and pump as often as I can on the side. Thankfully I haven't had a repeat of that episode.
I am grateful that I am able to breastfeed my baby, even though it can get frusterating at times. Breastfeeding has a way of tying you down at times, and puts time limits on most - if not all - activities. It can also be funny and rather annoying qhwn your baby starts playing around with your nipple, their "first toy" as many mothers call it. At first funny, and then annoying when you just want them to eat and get it over with. Breastfeeding can also be painful, especially when they pull away really hard, or when the teeth start coming in and they bite you on accident. In the end though, breastfeeding helps create a special bond between the mother and the baby. It does not take long for babies to know which parent will give them the food, it's almost as if they can smell it on you. Breastfeeding can also become a special time for you and your baby - a quiet time of reflection even. And really, you cannot beat the benefits that come with breastfeeding your baby! There is no duplicating the nutritional benefits that are in your God given breast milk!
I hope those who cannot or choose not to breastfeed do not take offense to this thought process and idea of mine. As I said, it is not for everyone, but I highly recommend it if you can do it.
Friday, October 8, 2010
The Results - or rather, what I did! :)
I guess to start, I should mention the issues I was having. My sweet little Alex, who I thought was just a good baby and sleeping 10 hours every night and taking multiple 2-3 hour naps during the day, was actually just being what many people call a "lazy baby". Now, I didn't think much about it at first, because Alex never complained when he was awake, just ate and went back to sleep. But then last weekend he was suddenly inconsolable, and he would get frusterated while trying to eat - he kept pulling away form the breast and would just cry. I didn't understand what was wrong, I hadn't changed the routine at all, and I was still feeding him for about 15-20 minutes. So I aked my mom and my pediatrician, and we realized that Alex was really almost starving, and my milk supply was starting to run out. So then I had to work through feeding him every hour for two days in a row, so that my milk supply could get back up. And then we had to make sure he was eating for at least 20 minutes on each breast. It was not very fun, believe me, my body was also taking a toll, especially the breasts! And not only that, my uterus was starting hurt too - in case some of you don't know, whenever you breastfeed, your uterus will contract. Some women can feel it, and others don't even notice. I was definitely starting to feel it! :)
So after that whole ordeal, by Tuesday Alex was acting normal again...except the fact that he wouldn't let me put him down and that he would scream if anyone else held him - even my husband. This didn't seem like normal Alex behavior to me, especially when he started staying up crying all night long.
**On a side note, because Xander is off-track for school, we are staying with my parents in Leavenworth, KS, right now and living in their "Mother-in-law" suite on the far side of the house. It's really just one huge bedroom, so Alex is in there with us, and usually sleeps in our bed with us.**
That was when I decided to ask about the "Crying Method" and see if anyone else knew something that perhaps I didn't know about what Alex was going through. So finally, after all of that, this is what I ended up doing:
I fed him, changed his diaper, burped him, and then put him down in his pack and play for the night...after only minutes, he began his loud cries, so I let him cry. After ten minutes, I turned over and tried to soothe him and let him know I was still there, and then turned back and tried to sleep through some of his cries. After doing that for an hour, I finally got up and held him until he pretty much fussed himself to sleep, and then I laid him back down. He slept for two hours and woke up crying again, so I fed him, changed him and burped him and put him back down. He began to cry again, but not as loud, and this time I kept my hand on his stomach and occasionally rubbed his head until he finally fell asleep after another hour. He then slept for five hours before waking up and wanting to eat. Later that day, he actually let others hold him without crying, and he took a few more naps during the day, and was talking and smiling again. I felt I finally had my Alex back.
So really, I don't know why he was crying like he did, but this is my guess as his mother: He was still trying to get his new feeding schedule, he wasn't napping a lot during the day so he was a lot more tired then he let on. And not knowing what was going on and how he was feeling, he just wanted some love and comfort from mom. Whether what I did or how I approached this situation was right or wrong, I felt it was what I needed to do for Alex. So just this morning I watched him and realized that he was his happy and content self again, and we are back on a regular schedule. In the end: MOM KNOWS BEST, And this whole wonderful and often tiring process is just you getting to know your child's personality a little more and a little better. It's really a process of getting to know the baby outside of your womb, and who he or she will eventually become. I hope this helps anyone who may be experiencing the same thing - and I just want to thank everyone again for all their advice! It really did help. :)
So after that whole ordeal, by Tuesday Alex was acting normal again...except the fact that he wouldn't let me put him down and that he would scream if anyone else held him - even my husband. This didn't seem like normal Alex behavior to me, especially when he started staying up crying all night long.
**On a side note, because Xander is off-track for school, we are staying with my parents in Leavenworth, KS, right now and living in their "Mother-in-law" suite on the far side of the house. It's really just one huge bedroom, so Alex is in there with us, and usually sleeps in our bed with us.**
That was when I decided to ask about the "Crying Method" and see if anyone else knew something that perhaps I didn't know about what Alex was going through. So finally, after all of that, this is what I ended up doing:
I fed him, changed his diaper, burped him, and then put him down in his pack and play for the night...after only minutes, he began his loud cries, so I let him cry. After ten minutes, I turned over and tried to soothe him and let him know I was still there, and then turned back and tried to sleep through some of his cries. After doing that for an hour, I finally got up and held him until he pretty much fussed himself to sleep, and then I laid him back down. He slept for two hours and woke up crying again, so I fed him, changed him and burped him and put him back down. He began to cry again, but not as loud, and this time I kept my hand on his stomach and occasionally rubbed his head until he finally fell asleep after another hour. He then slept for five hours before waking up and wanting to eat. Later that day, he actually let others hold him without crying, and he took a few more naps during the day, and was talking and smiling again. I felt I finally had my Alex back.
So really, I don't know why he was crying like he did, but this is my guess as his mother: He was still trying to get his new feeding schedule, he wasn't napping a lot during the day so he was a lot more tired then he let on. And not knowing what was going on and how he was feeling, he just wanted some love and comfort from mom. Whether what I did or how I approached this situation was right or wrong, I felt it was what I needed to do for Alex. So just this morning I watched him and realized that he was his happy and content self again, and we are back on a regular schedule. In the end: MOM KNOWS BEST, And this whole wonderful and often tiring process is just you getting to know your child's personality a little more and a little better. It's really a process of getting to know the baby outside of your womb, and who he or she will eventually become. I hope this helps anyone who may be experiencing the same thing - and I just want to thank everyone again for all their advice! It really did help. :)
Should You Let The Baby Cry?
As many read on facebook, I asked if anyone used the "Crying Method" for their baby. Here are the replies I got (I've taken everyones names off just for privacy reasons):
It didn't work for us. Our baby would really just cry, and cry, and cry. I couldn't let it go on too long. Now though, when I put him in his crib he might stand up on the side and cry for a minute but then he lays down and falls asleep.
I never did it and I don't agree with it. I hope that when little Alex cries you pick up and hold him,because that is what they need is the cuddling and closness of mom. there is no such thing as a spoiled baby, hold him all the time, when the time allows you to. I did with mine and the more physical touch the smarter they are when they grow.also they get big fast,so enjoy all the time you can holding him. Good Luck!!! he is to cute to let cry for to long...LOL Look at that cute face.
Yesterday
I don't agree with it either!! With my first I never let him cry but I spent 3 years without sleep!! And then with my second I learned to keep the baby monitor on and when he cried I would wait 10 min. Then go in... But i didnt start that until after he w...as 6 months old! They stay in bed wurh me or next to my bed until after 6 months! I have a huge fear of them dying in their sleep at so young an age! Plus they have been in my belly for 9 months why would I immediately dump them alone in a room?! When dale got older and I knew his cries I knew when I could wait 15 minutes! LOL because then he would wait ad see if I came in right on queue and if I didn't he'd stop and roll over and go to sleep!! LOL never leave them to "cry it out"... 10 minutes tops because they usually crying for a reason! If they are still crying at 10! Go in! Now both boys sleep perfect !!!
With my very limited experience, I would say there is usually a reason that a baby is crying, especially at this stage. I don't think it is possible to spoil a newborn, so cuddle him as much as you or he wants! Then when he gets a little bit older and learns to manipulate mommy/daddy by crying, then I might try the "Crying Method" and see if it holds any water. Every baby is different!
All I have to say is you have to teach your child how to sleep just like you teach them anything else. How you do that is up to you and shouldn't be judged by anyone. I used a type of cry it out method along with a strict schedule in the beginning and our baby has been sleeping thru since she was 7 months old 7pm til 7am. Every child is diff. do wat u feel is right and wat works for u and ur baby no matter wat anyone says. Good luck to you :)
Our little girl started sleeping 12 hours at night when she was 2 months because we let her cry a little. I read in the book Babywise that babies often cry to wind down not necessarily because they're upset but because they don't know what else to... do. (that is very loosely paraphrased, wish I had the actual quote.) we let her cry for 15 min then we would go in and give her her binky and soothe her a little, without picking her up, and leave. If she kept crying we went back in in another 15 min and did the same thing over again. She never cried for more than 45 min.You can feel good with whatever decision you make because no matter what, you're a good mom and your little sweetie will know you love him. Just try to be consistent with whatever you choose, a bedtime routine helps, and do the same thing every night. Once She cried from 11 at night until 8 in the morning and I was up with her the whole time. It wound have been better for both of us if I had put her down and let her cry a little so she could have a good sleep. Babies don't want to be awake all night, especially new borns because they need so much sleep, but I think they sometimes need to cry a little to figure out how to fall asleep. Like I said, no matter what you choose you're a good mom. Don't let anyone convince you that something you have decided to do for your baby is bad. Mommy knows best!!!!
Enjoy reading all these novels! haha!
Mo, I could never do that. It is my opinion that babies cry when they have a need. They need food, or to be changed or to be comforted. I know for a fact that babies who are not held develop attachment disorders. One of My little girls(you know she... is adopted) was not held or comforted consistently by her birth mother for the first seven months of life and almost died as a result. She was unable to hold food and struggled in every aspect of development. I am grateful that after only one year she completely recovered. Babies need to know that you are there when they need comfort. When Alex is 2 or so and can understand language, he will then need to be taught age appropriate boundaries. I think it makes you feel awful because it is not right for you. Just my opinion. I love you!
I don't think it works when they're super-young! I think it does from, say, maybe a year on....then again, I'm a major softie.
Your kids too young, wait a few months now would be just torture. Work on getting his schedule down and stretching awake times so he sleeps longer during naps and at night.
I hated doing that with my first baby. I would end up sitting outside her door and crying myself until I couldn't handle it anymore and went in and snuggled her. I ended up going with putting her down drowsy but awake and she figured it out!!
It's definitely based on age. Once my second baby was a certain age I would let her cry some. If you eventually decide to do this, just remember there is a difference between crying for a little bit and hysterically screaming. Some parents agree some don't. Your the parent so it ends up being how you want to handle the situation. Just because something worked on my kids I don't assume its best for all. Sometimes babies get overtired and refuse to go to sleep until pure exhaustion makes them. Those make for rough nights.
Thank you so much for all of your wisdom and thoughts! I really appreciated it! :)
It didn't work for us. Our baby would really just cry, and cry, and cry. I couldn't let it go on too long. Now though, when I put him in his crib he might stand up on the side and cry for a minute but then he lays down and falls asleep.
I never did it and I don't agree with it. I hope that when little Alex cries you pick up and hold him,because that is what they need is the cuddling and closness of mom. there is no such thing as a spoiled baby, hold him all the time, when the time allows you to. I did with mine and the more physical touch the smarter they are when they grow.also they get big fast,so enjoy all the time you can holding him. Good Luck!!! he is to cute to let cry for to long...LOL Look at that cute face.
Yesterday
I don't agree with it either!! With my first I never let him cry but I spent 3 years without sleep!! And then with my second I learned to keep the baby monitor on and when he cried I would wait 10 min. Then go in... But i didnt start that until after he w...as 6 months old! They stay in bed wurh me or next to my bed until after 6 months! I have a huge fear of them dying in their sleep at so young an age! Plus they have been in my belly for 9 months why would I immediately dump them alone in a room?! When dale got older and I knew his cries I knew when I could wait 15 minutes! LOL because then he would wait ad see if I came in right on queue and if I didn't he'd stop and roll over and go to sleep!! LOL never leave them to "cry it out"... 10 minutes tops because they usually crying for a reason! If they are still crying at 10! Go in! Now both boys sleep perfect !!!
With my very limited experience, I would say there is usually a reason that a baby is crying, especially at this stage. I don't think it is possible to spoil a newborn, so cuddle him as much as you or he wants! Then when he gets a little bit older and learns to manipulate mommy/daddy by crying, then I might try the "Crying Method" and see if it holds any water. Every baby is different!
All I have to say is you have to teach your child how to sleep just like you teach them anything else. How you do that is up to you and shouldn't be judged by anyone. I used a type of cry it out method along with a strict schedule in the beginning and our baby has been sleeping thru since she was 7 months old 7pm til 7am. Every child is diff. do wat u feel is right and wat works for u and ur baby no matter wat anyone says. Good luck to you :)
Our little girl started sleeping 12 hours at night when she was 2 months because we let her cry a little. I read in the book Babywise that babies often cry to wind down not necessarily because they're upset but because they don't know what else to... do. (that is very loosely paraphrased, wish I had the actual quote.) we let her cry for 15 min then we would go in and give her her binky and soothe her a little, without picking her up, and leave. If she kept crying we went back in in another 15 min and did the same thing over again. She never cried for more than 45 min.You can feel good with whatever decision you make because no matter what, you're a good mom and your little sweetie will know you love him. Just try to be consistent with whatever you choose, a bedtime routine helps, and do the same thing every night. Once She cried from 11 at night until 8 in the morning and I was up with her the whole time. It wound have been better for both of us if I had put her down and let her cry a little so she could have a good sleep. Babies don't want to be awake all night, especially new borns because they need so much sleep, but I think they sometimes need to cry a little to figure out how to fall asleep. Like I said, no matter what you choose you're a good mom. Don't let anyone convince you that something you have decided to do for your baby is bad. Mommy knows best!!!!
Enjoy reading all these novels! haha!
Mo, I could never do that. It is my opinion that babies cry when they have a need. They need food, or to be changed or to be comforted. I know for a fact that babies who are not held develop attachment disorders. One of My little girls(you know she... is adopted) was not held or comforted consistently by her birth mother for the first seven months of life and almost died as a result. She was unable to hold food and struggled in every aspect of development. I am grateful that after only one year she completely recovered. Babies need to know that you are there when they need comfort. When Alex is 2 or so and can understand language, he will then need to be taught age appropriate boundaries. I think it makes you feel awful because it is not right for you. Just my opinion. I love you!
I don't think it works when they're super-young! I think it does from, say, maybe a year on....then again, I'm a major softie.
Your kids too young, wait a few months now would be just torture. Work on getting his schedule down and stretching awake times so he sleeps longer during naps and at night.
I hated doing that with my first baby. I would end up sitting outside her door and crying myself until I couldn't handle it anymore and went in and snuggled her. I ended up going with putting her down drowsy but awake and she figured it out!!
It's definitely based on age. Once my second baby was a certain age I would let her cry some. If you eventually decide to do this, just remember there is a difference between crying for a little bit and hysterically screaming. Some parents agree some don't. Your the parent so it ends up being how you want to handle the situation. Just because something worked on my kids I don't assume its best for all. Sometimes babies get overtired and refuse to go to sleep until pure exhaustion makes them. Those make for rough nights.
Thank you so much for all of your wisdom and thoughts! I really appreciated it! :)
Thursday, October 7, 2010
I've done it...I surrendered to the blogging!
Well, I've done it, I gave in - yielded - surrendered even - to the blogging. I guess to start, one of my main reasons for starting this blog was to get advice and even put out some advice on the challenges, joys, and blessings of motherhood. I realized that I was inadverdently asking for lots of advice from my friends on facebook about a lot of things my little boy, Alex, was doing or should be doing. And that's when the idea came to me...why not just start a blog and ask those questions, and even write about what is happening and how I'm handling the situation! Now, granted, there are no two babies alike in this world, but there are often many you can find similarities with, and with them, you find their mothers.
So yes, I gave to the blog, but I'm hoping it will turn out well; and even if I don't get many readers, I'll at least be able to throw many of my rushing thoughts out there...because being a new mom is so much more than just having a baby...it's also about you as a mom, your changing body and mind, and also about your husband and you raising this child.
So...I guess after all that rambling on up there, what I really have to say is...here are my thoughts and advice on motherhood, and thrown in are some family updates as well. :)
So yes, I gave to the blog, but I'm hoping it will turn out well; and even if I don't get many readers, I'll at least be able to throw many of my rushing thoughts out there...because being a new mom is so much more than just having a baby...it's also about you as a mom, your changing body and mind, and also about your husband and you raising this child.
So...I guess after all that rambling on up there, what I really have to say is...here are my thoughts and advice on motherhood, and thrown in are some family updates as well. :)
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